“Sometimes you just have to take the leap and build your wings on the way down.” ― Kobi Yamada
It’s actually happening. When the first speaker pubmat was published this evening, when I read the answers of the people who registered for the event, when I looked at the HEED Facebook page and saw that the posts are reaching thousands of people now. I didn’t know how to feel. I stared at my computer screen for a long time. I couldn’t believe it. It was real. Suddenly, I found myself in tears. I cried because I was so grateful and happy and scared and excited all at the same time. 6 years. There is overflowing gratefulness in my soul right now.
I am grateful to the Universe for giving this opportunity. For giving me patience and stubbornness, because without these I would have given up on this advocacy a long time ago. When I was laughed at in front of 120 people for pitching my social enterprise. When some people close to me thought I was crazy for prioritizing community service over the more “prestigious” side of engineering. The Universe granted me stubbornness when I couldn’t find anyone (yet) with the same passion to support my idea of establishing a humanitarian engineering program in our beloved university.
I am grateful to UP students. They were the first ones who listened and took notice of my advocacy. It was my students who showed genuine passion for the idea of service-learning and humanitarian engineering. They showed their passion through fearless action. For every project they showcased to either a public high-school student or another college or the public, I saw how they went the extra mile by doing things beyond what was required of them. They owned each event. They owned each project. Even if the challenge was huge and it was their first time doing it, they faced it. And seeing that fearless passion kept me going. They gave me hope that HEED had a chance of becoming a reality.
Now, the tide has finally turned. The University heeded the call by granting us money for HEED 2017. A college (hopefully two colleges by next week!) heeded the call by endorsing the event. And of course, two student organizations also heeded the call, showing that signature Iskolar ng Bayan passion in making this event a reality.
My adventures for the past 6 years flashed back as my tears fell this evening. The long boat ride to Culion and its neighboring islands that opened my eyes to a harsh reality. The long bus ride to Penn State, the long train ride to D-Lab, the first GHTC conference I attended in Seattle, every interview I had with anyone who has done or is doing humanitarian engineering work to get whatever knowledge I can from their experiences. Every letter I wrote, every proposal crafted, every email sent. I remember how I used to do technically everything on my own for HEED, to protect my idea from being laughed at again. To prevent people from telling me to forget about HEED because it was too idealistic. But now, as I looked at each pub that comes out, each message in our HEED FB group, I tell myself, “It’s okay. You no longer have to do this on your own. You can share HEED with others now. There’s a big chance people won’t laugh anymore because circumstances have changed. Trust that they will listen this time.”
I know that we are just starting and there is still a lot of work ahead of us after the Symposium. It actually scares me a lot, what happens after the symposium. But seeing how HEED learned to fly when it took a leap 6 years ago, and with the people supporting it now, I am confident that it will continue learning to fly higher and farther as more people join the movement with fearless passion for action. :’)
“Something has changed within me Something is not the same… …It’s time to trust my instincts Close my eyes and leap!“
~Defying Gravity, Wicked
When I applied as a faculty member two years ago, I made it clear during the interview that I wanted to advise undergraduate students in doing their research projects. I had my first attempt last school year when four beautiful ladies (naks!) bravely accepted the thesis topic I offered on fabricating mushroom materials (Yup, you read that right, MUSHROOMS!). Advising was foreign land to me. It was different from teaching in a classroom setting. I was terribly limited by experience and during that time, I have yet to learn about and harness the power of collaboration.
Expectedly, I failed as an adviser the first time around. My students suffered during their defense because I overlooked a lot of things. I fought back the tears that wanted to flow during the deliberation of my advisees. I really wanted to cry because I felt ashamed by my lack of experience in research. I may not be the only one to blame, but I know truthfully that I could have done better as their adviser.
Then came the next school year and I was given another chance to handle undergraduate advisees. Our department chair informed the MatE faculty that the Mechanical Engineering (ME) department was seeking help in fabricating the body of UP’s entry for the Shell Eco-Marathon Asia 2016 (SEMA 2016). The pain of my failure the previous year was still fresh, but if there’s one thing I learned from Steve Jobs and the IDEA workshop and symposia I’ve attended, it’s that failure is a stepping stone to success. It does not make you less of a person. I grabbed the opportunity.
Obviously, this whole composite fabrication thing using vacuum infusion process is new to the department. Vacuum bagging was as far as we have gone before and even research involving that has already stopped. Our department chair and I made this clear with ME and, fortunately, they were still willing to risk it by involving DMMME in the UP SEMA team for the first time. The department got into the UP team. Three faculty members were involved: our chairperson, myself as adviser, and another MatE faculty as co-adviser.
The next step was to find advisees. The scale of the project and the pressure involved demanded a screening process for interested students. We came up with four students. All six of us were in for a very bumpy, but exhilarating ride!
One of the things I was confused about advising was the extent to which I will guide my students. Should I be in the lab to help them or should I leave them by themselves and just have them consult when they need help? I learned that students become too dependent on the teacher if the latter is too hands-on. On the other hand, they become demotivated or discouraged if the teacher steps back too much. Finding the balance is still a challenge and is something that only experience will most likely be able to teach.
One of the many feelings I will never forget was a sense of pride for my students whenever they figured out how to do something or solve a practical engineering problem on their own. At first I was working with them in the lab to share what I’ve learned from making fiberglass boats last year, but after some time they did the work by themselves, only asking for guidance from time to time. By now they know their craft so well that I am confident they can conduct a training workshop on the fabrication process (you will in the future! Kailangan niyo ipasa ang natutunan niyo. :P)!
Another moment I will never forget was when the DMMME SEMA team was granted access to a room in our building that would serve as our temporary laboratory. My long-term goal as faculty is to establish a laboratory, much like what my beloved adviser and other senior faculty have been doing. So being given a room and having the team clean it together, furnish it with lights, tables, etc., the entire process was like a peek of what might be in the future!
One of my failures last year as adviser was my lack of expertise. A solution I found for this is collaboration. Collaboration can work wonders by providing perspectives different from yours and getting expertise that you lack, among other benefits. The SEMA work environment made me realize how important it is for every engineering student to, at least once in their college life, be part of a major collaborative project that would put them in a high pressure environment. And by pressure I mean real-world pressure from a funding agency and/or another institute/department/organization (not the type of pressure simply demanded by deadlines set by the teacher). Why? Because it is that type of pressure they will encounter out there if they decide to pursue meaningful things after graduation. They must learn to think and make decisions in the tough and diverse face of collaboration, on top of whatever they are going through in their personal lives. It is also very rare that a real-world project would involve people from only one discipline. Thus, students must learn how to work with people from other fields.
Looking back at the activities of the past few months, I will never forget how I saw my advisees persevere both physically, mentally, and emotionally (pati ba spiritually?! haha). The late nights, the overnights (grabe never ko ginawa ito sa undergrad at master’s thesis ko!), the disappointments (especially when we found out that we cannot use the mold), all the pain from the carbon fiber dust, the itchiness of the fiberglass, etc. All these experiences eventually led to a positive outcome because our students chose to continue moving forward. They never gave up!
After the DMMME SEMA team attended the general meeting at EEEI for the first time last August or September, five of us gathered in the EEEI parking lot and I will never forget what one of my students said: “I waited five years for an opportunity like this!” I waited for almost ten years! haha. We have a lot of people to thank for this much-awaited opportunity:
Our chairperson, for giving us faculty and students the opportunity to be involved in a project like SEMA (and for being very supportive of the team). EEEI and ME for inviting DMMME to be a part of the UP SEMA team. Sir Teej for teaching us how to do a proper vacuum infusion process. My colleague who served as co-adviser, for imparting his amazing statistics skills to the team (thank you, Sir Audric!!! Ang galing mo sa stat!). All the volunteers who gave and still continue to unconditionally give their time and energy. Other MatE faculty that the team consulted, thank you for giving your insights on the project! Last, but absolutely never the least:
Anton, Ison, Jason, Joseph – thank you for facing the challenge head-on! I have said this to some of you before, but I will say it again: your perseverance and commitment to the project is inspiring. I know there were times when you felt so discouraged, but I hope the experience has taught you that failure is a part of the process. I’d like to believe that by now you have developed a greater degree of emotional resiliency. How I wish I can still be there to see the car to its completion, but I am confident that you already have the skill needed to fabricate the other parts (naman, after ng lower tub! haha). If you still need guidance on anything, I am just an email away. Aabangan ko ang pictures niyo sa FB group. For now, your teacher needs to train to improve her expertise for future advisees (para naman hindi na ako masyado aasa sa collaboration to get the expertise a Materials Engineer should know in the first place) and for us to have something more to offer to other fields for future collaborations.
Compared to last year, I’d like to believe that I somehow made some progress in advising. I learned how to show some level of strictness (natakot daw sila na galit na ako kaya tinapos nila yung manuscript and presentation on time :D) and, from now on, to meticulously check before embarking on a project whether or not it is materials science or materials engineering related. I have nothing against science. It’s just that, sometimes, the line between science and engineering is so blurred in the Philippines.
We are engineers. We design and create things that will push humanity forward! Mabuhay ang mga inhinyero ng bayan! :)
My service-learning advocacy is now nearly four years old. My progress might be slow, but nevertheless I am grateful for the journey. This dream– to formally introduce service-learning in local engineering education– gave me the opportunity to meet amazing people, visit various places both locally and abroad, and do things I never imagined I am capable of.
Tomorrow will be an exciting day again! I was lucky to have scheduled an appointment with a renowned Filipino ceramic artist from the UP College of Fine Arts to ask for advice regarding a service-learning project for my ceramics laboratory class next semester. While gathering online information for the meeting, I was surprised to find that the ceramic artist and the person from which I am basing my service-learning project were both at the International Ceramics Festival in UK early this month!
Here’s to taking chances once again at exploring other possible engineering service-learning projects. Wish me luck! :)
P.S. I am delighted to share that two of my fellow teachers in the department asked if they can implement a service-learning project for the course that they will be handling next semester. Of course I said YES! That project, unlike the previous ones I headed for the past three semesters, will be their very own project! They will try to implement their very own service-learning project! This is a dream come true! I wish you all the best!
P.P.S. Since we are in the process of sharing good vibes, please allow me to share another short story. :) I went to the college library this morning to borrow books for the coming semester and one of the librarians informed me that I won the “Best Borrower Award” for last semester!!! :)))) I didn’t even know that such an award existed! Thank you Engineering Library! Yay! :D
This is the true joy in life, the being used for a purpose recognized by yourself as a mighty one; the being a force of nature instead of a feverish, selfish little clod of ailments and grievances complaining that the world will not devote itself to making you happy…I want to be thoroughly used up when I die, for the harder I work the more I live… -George Bernard Shaw
I stumbled upon this article while reading through the website of Ms. Anna Oposa, one of my biggest inspirations for dreaming big. The title caught my attention because for many years I have been told, like many people, to find what I am passionate about. Fortunately after reading the article, I realized that things still fell into place on their own for the past few years because the universe led me to a problem I wanted to help solve: engineering education. I probably wouldn’t have realized my passions (education and community service) had I not felt intense frustration in graduate school. So yes, I guess it’s true that if you find the correct problem, passion and happiness will automatically follow.
“Teaching is the profession that creates all others.”
You look at how you teach in class,
And you say,
It is not enough, it is not enough.
The environment is changing,
But still has a long way to go.
Paradigm shift and discipline;
There is still a lot to know.
At the end of the day,
What can you do?
And step into that room
With renewed courage
Not all days are filled with joy.
Frustration is no stranger;
Weariness can linger.
Students do things that can break your heart,
But as a teacher,
Correct the action,
and tell them,
To have a fresh start.
We must not lose hope.
Students can stop trusting themselves;
Remind them to try again.
Always tell them to try again.
And never forget to tell yourself
To try again.
For what is a school?
Is it not a safe place to commit mistakes?
For the student,
It should be.
For the teacher?
The consequences are heavier.
That is the beauty of teaching.
You have so much power to shape the future,
But so much power to destroy as well.
to be constructive,
Must be seated on humility:
To keep learning,
To keep sharing,
To keep growing and improving.
No matter how weary a situation may seem,
Recall your intention,
And your passion will keep burning.
Smile and keep your head held high,
Be an inspiration,
You are a teacher,
Your gift to the world will never, ever, die.