March 13, 2010
I was productive yesterday. I was productive this morning. Then suddenly while I was studying this afternoon… I was still. It was as if my body (or brain) was telling me, “stop, I’m tired.” I tried solving a problem in ES 21, but it won’t sink in. I took a break and read the newspaper, then returned to the unfinished problem with still no progress. I was sitting on the bench in our porch. Just sitting there, asking myself, “what do I do now?”
I have a research paper to write. I have interview questions to prepare for my interview with two deans next week. I can’t mess those interviews. I can’t mess that paper. I don’t want to mess that paper.
I have ES 21 to practice. The ES that they say is easy, but what the heck, it seems that in my four years in UP, math has yet to love me.
So after sitting down on the bench for who knows how long, I decided to open the computer and find something in the internet that might trigger me to work again. A song, a quote, a website, anything. Even facebook didn’t distract me this time.
It was one of those days when I thought I had the drive or energy to study, then suddenly everything just drains away.
I went to youtube and found this song. It’s a wonderful song from Les Miserables. It’s sad, but it’s wonderful.
What do I do now? I’ll keep trying to write my paper and keep trying to solve that ES 21 problem. As Dory always said in Finding Nemo, “just keep swimming, just keep swimming…” So I will keep trying. Kahit mabagal, basta gumagalaw. I’m swimming against the current right now. haha.
Ok, enough multiply. Get back to work!